This passage brought me so much comfort today:
Moving Deeply into the Now
In the absence of psychological time, your sense of self is derived from Being, not from your personal past. Therefore, the psychological need to become anything other than who you already are is no longer there. In the world, on the level of your life situation, you may indeed become wealthy, knowledgeable, successful, free of this or that, but in the deeper dimension of Being you are complete and whole now. Continue reading “When You Realize You are Complete Now, You are Free”
This post is going to show you how to consciously deal with an angry person. The question here is about an angry, depressed husband. But you can substitute anything here for husband- coworker, friend, mother, sister, neighbor, etc.
Jade said: Making strides…hubby has been depressed and grumpy at me for 3 days.
His life is changing big time right now and he started drinking daily. What he does not see is that alcohol does affect your moods…
Proud to say that I have not reacted unlovingly or with my ego. Once I had to walk away and seek solitude though. But I soothed myself and it is starting to work.
Lisa Arcelia said: Good girl Jade! I know and have lived your situation. Continue reading “How to Consciously Deal with a Depressed, Angry Husband”
I just realized a few moments ago that my blog is now over a year old. What a difference a year in a life makes! I’ve been through a heck of a lot over the past year- my son’s heartbreak and depression, my husband’s continuing challenges with health and depression, and some other things which were pretty awful that I won’t mention…
Continue reading “Wishing you the peace of the season!”
The last month has been busy for me. I have been working, going to my therapy, communicating with my husband, and being there for my son.
And now fall is here. This is my absolute favorite time of year. I took Buddy for a nice long walk first thing this morning around 2 lakes in the middle of my little town. It was cool and cloudy and raining a little. I don’t know why but I love this weather.
Today is a special day. My son is making his first trip back up to school to spend time with his friends. My brother-in-law is coming up to spend time with my husband. And I am going to New York City for the weekend with my 2 good girlfriends. So much to be grateful for! Continue reading “A Happy Weekend”
In the days after I realized how emotionally depressed my son was I found myself in a lot of fear. Terror actually. I felt like my whole world was falling apart. But then I slowly began to connect with others. Other mothers who had been through their children’s traumas. Other people who had survived their own depression and anxiety.
One thing I told myself when all this happened- I was NOT going to isolate from others. Years ago I would have held all this pain in and carried it around in me like a big dark secret. But I have learned that keeping secrets keeps you sick.
I am not going around shouting my miseries and woes to everyone and anyone. But it is important for me to share my life and what I am going through with others who are close to me- my friends and family. Continue reading “Little by little we are healing”
I read Viktor Frankl’s book “Man’s Search for Meaning” a few times when I was younger. This man lost his entire family and survived a Nazi concentration camp, despite tremendous odds.
His message of choosing one’s response to any set of difficult circumstances resonated deeply with me, and still does today. Continue reading “Choosing not to freak out”
My beautiful son is suffering a lot and all I can do is stand by and watch. His girlfriend (his first love) broke his heart in a cruel and calculating way. He is devastated. Was not able to make it back to school for this semester.
He is deeply depressed and has gone to a very low and dark space.
I am doing my best to be a quiet, loving, presence and just be there for him. I am loving him. There is nothing else I can do. And I know that this too shall pass, eventually…
The sunlight and shadows and stillness of the early morning kitchen surround me. All this shit came to a head only 5 days ago.
He is asleep. Today we will get some medication that will help him as he lives through his depression.
I am blessed to be here with him. I am so grateful he is home and not away at school. He won’t let me do anything, but I can watch him and be here. I am praying to my grandparents in heaven who watch over us and love us and help us.
He has a flat affect most of the time, but sometimes he comes back alive a little bit.
He has a good rapport as far as I can tell with the therapist I found for him. He is going again today.
The only thing I bought on vacation this years was a candle and some incense. They are being put to good use now, when I remember. Sitting silently is what I do a lot of the day while he sleeps. The light of the candle and the spicy aroma of the incense stick is nice.
I have been exasperated and overwhelmed. I am going to start seeing a therapist tomorrow.
Yesterday I got home from vacation with my family. We went to Chatham, Massachusetts, which is a lovely New England beach town in Cape Cod. I took excellent care of myself on vacation and that is the topic of this post.
Self care is always one of my top priorities. When you treat yourself well, your body and mind respond in kind. Also, it demonstrates to others (your spouse, your children, etc.) that you care about yourself, and this can rub off on them. Well, hopefully, that is…
But before I tell you what I did for my self care, to maintain my sanity and my composure, let me illustrate the nuances of this vacation. Continue reading “Self Care Diary: Because Vacation Is a Lot of Work”
Today we’re talking about choosing kindness and doing the right thing, even when it doesn’t necessarily get noticed. And how by doing this, it puts YOU in a better mood and can be a bright spot in your day.
I have a 9 year old German Shepard named Buddy who loves to go for walks.
This morning I took Buddy for a walk/run at a nearby elementary school, where he can run off leash. It’s a few miles from the house so we have to drive there. I parked the car and let him out so he could go do his business, while I got the car locked. He immediately ran over to the school and made a poop. Continue reading “On Being Kind & Why I Had To Pick Up the Dog Poop”
July is coming to a close. Today let’s pause for a minute and take a look back at the things we are grateful for this month. Life is made up of little fleeting moments, and when you take a moment to reflect back in gratitude, you make today a better one.
Here are some things I am thankful for this month: Continue reading “July Gratitude List”