My husband struggles with bipolar disorder and doesn’t choose to get treatment for it. Because of this, his job, the pain and issues with his Crohn’s disease- and just life in general – can really get to him sometimes.
A big piece of my spiritual practice and emotional healing is learning how not to get sucked into his drama. I am learning to connect with my center and stay grounded, even when he acts chaotic and irrational.
Since I have learned how to be mindful and how to live in the present, I am learning to just let him be and not judge or condemn him too much. But dealing with my husband, when his bipolar rears it’s ugly head, is a continual challenge.
This past weekend was pretty tough. Bob was working on a detailed project in the driveway and garage: he purchased a used boat recently and has been fixing it up. He loves to work on projects, that’s his hobby. Continue reading “The Challenges of Dealing With My Bipolar Husband When He Acts Out”
This morning I had not one iota of self-awareness. My inner calm and serenity went right out the door in an instant…
One thing I am learning, mostly through messing up, is that to have peace in your life, you have to start where you are now.
I am getting over a bad cold. We were supposed to fly to Chicago on Saturday to visit my brother and his family. But I got sick last week, and even though I tried to rest and whatnot, we ended up cancelling the whole trip. So I feel guilty about that, even though I know it would have been stupid and rude to go and stay at my brother’s house with a cough and fever. Continue reading “No Self-Awareness & No Inner Calm – I Messed Up Again”
Today I’d like to share how I am practicing a little bit of self-awareness, and reaping instant benefits from it. How I was stuck in a negativity pattern with my husband, and how, by being mindful and choosing kindness instead, how that negativity quickly turned itself around…
Bob is sick again. He is experiencing a total body exhaustion and profound tiredness that makes it hard for him to function. He sleeps all the time – on the weekend he slept all night and then woke up and fell asleep again and slept all day. This week at work he told me said he has been falling asleep at his desk a lot, something that I know he hates. I think this is one of the effects of his Remicade, and he also has a cold. So it’s a double whammy I guess… Continue reading “How Self Awareness is Healing My Marriage Today”
I used to wonder why my weekends were always so bad. Why my husband and I always picked fights and got so bitchy with each other. I got so sick and tired of dreading my weekends and wishing I could just relax and enjoy 2 days of rest and not working.
What I am beginning to learn is to keep the focus on myself, not others, and not on things out of my control. As Byron Katie says, there are only 3 businesses in the world: God’s business, Other Peoples’ business, and Your Business. Whose business are you in? 🙂 Continue reading “My quest for a peaceful weekend”