Why I am Practicing Gratitude When Our Health Insurance Denied Us 3 Times

when you accept what is every moment is the best moment

Today I am going to actively practice gratitude. Bob still doesn’t feel well. He missed 2 days of work last week, and he has to be half dead to not go to work. So I know he feels like shit. I am going to not focus on that today because it makes me feel very scared and hopeless. Instead I am going to be thankful for what is.

Last Saturday Bob finally got his Remicade infusion- hurray! 😀 Seriously, I want to shout Hallelujah from the mountaintops!  I’m glad I spoke up to the doctor and told him how his office and the new insurance company were giving us the run around (as I said in my last post, they denied his Remicade THREE times- and he’s been getting if for over a year!). I only wish I hadn’t waited a full month before I did say something. Note to self- remember to advocate for my family’s health care.  I am so happy and grateful that Bob finally got the medicine he needs.

I am very grateful that we have health insurance. It is expensive and the company doesn’t seem to pay for things without putting up a fight. But it is what it is. We have health insurance and can get the medicine and health care we need (even if I have to fight for it, lol!) I know many people aren’t as fortunate. Recently I was getting my hair colored and the stylist was telling me how she finally had her first mammogram (she is over 40). The reason she never had one before is she never had health insurance! So I need to remember this and not take it for granted, even if I have to make some noise to get the benefits I pay for.

My husband has a chronic illness (Crohn’s disease) and health issues and suffering aside, it is expensive. He has a gastroenterologist, a pain management doctor, a rhuemotologist and and an endocrinologist. He has been hospitalized, and he has had surgery. Thank God we can afford health insurance. Thank God indeed.

I’m so happy and grateful to have a few friends to do things with occasionally. Today I went for a hike with one of my friends from work. It’s something we’ve talked about doing a few times, and today we just decided to do it. It was absolutely beautiful out- the weather was sunny and perfect. It felt amazing to be out and the hike was nice and challenging. Being outside exercising was probably the best thing I could have done for myself. So I’m very very grateful that we went. Being out socializing felt nice too- it was nice to have girl talk and have some laughs.

I’m not someone that craves socialization, as I am around people all day every day at work. Plus with Bob’s health things, that takes up energy. Also I am an introvert and I truly do rejuvenate by spending time alone.

When I was younger I was the polar opposite of how I am now. I drank and partied a lot (too much actually), and my social scene revolved around that. I went out probably 5 nights a week. Well I gave all that up decades ago, and I have zero desire to hang out in bars or even just hang out and drink. I’m not into drama and being drunk and all of that nonsense. I’m not a prude, and I do enjoy a drink or 2 one in a while. But I do have some nice girlfriends and getting out, perhaps monthly?? who knows, is something I would like to start to do for myself.

I am grateful for re-connecting with my husband. Now that my son is away at school and Bob and I are empty-nesters, we like to do little things together in the evenings and on weekends. Simple things like taking the dog for long walks, or cooking, or doing yardwork or things around the house together. This weekend we are going to see a play at a local theater, just for the heck of it. Simple things make me very happy. Even if we just go to Target and just walk around and pick up something for dessert.

I am so grateful that my son is doing well in school. I always worry about him and his well-being is always a huge concern. He had a minor fuck up his freshman year- he got in trouble for smoking pot in his dorm room. But his nose has been clean since then thank God, his grades are good, and he seems really interested in going to medical school after he graduates. His path will be very long and hard, but I will support him any way I can. So knock wood his life seems to be going smoothly.

I am grateful for my life.

I am grateful that I have a job that I like and that I get one day off a week.

I am grateful for Buddy. He is such a good dog.

I am grateful it’s finally Spring. Such a joy to hear the morning birdsong and have light and see the new growth, and be able to be outside and not freeze 🙂

I am forever grateful that I have learned how to be mindful. Having to live with and witness my husband’s pain and suffering over these past few years has not been easy. However, learning to stay in the present moment- and not project into the future– has been helping me deal with the stress very much. I certainly can’t handle another month of this. But I can handle RIGHT NOW, which is the only moment that actually exists. And right now is pretty ok 🙂 Remembering this- that all I ever have to deal with is the present moment- is a huge comfort.

And reflecting on all that I have to be grateful for today shows me how blessed I truly am.

Tell me, what do you have to be grateful for today? Don’t you feel better when you actively practice gratitude in your life?

Wishing you well,

Lisa Arcelia xo

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4 thoughts on “Why I am Practicing Gratitude When Our Health Insurance Denied Us 3 Times”

  1. Love this post! I recently started keeping a gratitude journal. Each morning I fill one page with what I’m grateful for-sometimes major things, sometimes little things, like that first cup of coffee in the morning. My husband, who is quite a few years my senior, struggles with dementia, so my days can often be challenging. But, yet I still have much to be grateful for. Thank you for sharing your perspective here on gratitude and mindfulness (that’s something I still need to focus on).

    1. Hi Beth,

      I’m so sorry to hear about your husband. I cannot imagine your challenges and my heart goes out to you! I love that you keep a gratitude journal- I’m sure it helps keep you going. I used to keep them years ago. It was a powerful practice, and I have no idea why I stopped 🙂
      Yes, those little everyday blessings are wonderful to take notice of and savor. I do hope you will try some mindfulness too, it really helps keep you laser focused on NOW- not the past or the future…

  2. That’s a wonderful post, Lisa! So many people will only see the negatives of their situation. But there is always some things to be grateful for, even if they are small at times. Thanks for the reminder! X

    1. You’re welcome Berni. Yes, there are always things to be grateful for. And actively practicing gratitude can really prevent me from getting negative, or help me out of a negative situation. Thank you for the comment 🙂

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