I just realized a few moments ago that my blog is now over a year old. What a difference a year in a life makes! I’ve been through a heck of a lot over the past year- my son’s heartbreak and depression, my husband’s continuing challenges with health and depression, and some other things which were pretty awful that I won’t mention…
Lots of very stressful and challenging life situations. In October I also took on another job, complete with a 2 week orientation. I now work at 2 hospitals. The second job was something I was up to and wanted to do at the time. With all the emotional unrest in my house, I wanted to have something concrete to focus on. And the new hospital unit is nice.
One thing I’m really glad about is that I’ve kept up my meditation practice. It has helped me immensely, especially in the not so good moments. I have to admit, during the hardest of times, my meditation practice has been my lifeline. That and listening to and reading Eckhart Tolle and Byron Katie.
Something very, very cool is that my panic attacks are virtually nonexistent. I totally attribute that to my state of inner connectedness to others and learning to understand and undo my ego. It is a process (undoing the ego) but I am doing well. I still have angst and low level anxiety at times, but nothing like in years past.
I am also 100% off antidepressants and it feels very nice 🙂
And now it is the most wonderful time of the year, the Christmas season. I feel so blessed that my son is home and that we have had a lot of really nice times together. We usually go out to lunch or something fun on Wednesdays, my day off. Had he not missed this semester of school, maybe we wouldn’t have made that special connection.
I love this time of year. It is so cold and the early darkness somehow bring me nostalgic feelings of Christmas’s past. Most of the people I know hate this weather and so I pretty much keep my feelings to myself, lol! I love watching Christmas movies and hearing the songs. I even lose myself shopping for little things. People always seem nicer this time of year. It is a holy time for me.
What is really nice is how happy and blessed I feel, even though I wouldn’t wish what I went through on anyone.
Here is a beautiful guided meditation showing winter scenery- perfect to lull you to sleep. Enjoy!
Hoping this finds you in a good place emotionally. Wishing you the peace of the season!