Choosing not to freak out

I read Viktor Frankl’s book “Man’s Search for Meaning” a few times when I was younger. ┬áThis man lost his entire family and survived a Nazi concentration camp, despite tremendous odds.

Everything can be taken from a man but one thing the last of the human freedoms to choose ones attitude in any given set of circumstances to choose ones own way Viktor Frankl

His message of choosing one’s response to any set of difficult circumstances resonated deeply with me, and still does today.

Now I’m not saying I am living through a Nazi concentration camp, but the recent shock in my family has caused a lot of things to be taken away from me: my sense of security, my story of a happy family, my hopes.

I have been confronting my fears and living day to day, staying in the present moment as best I can.
I think back to other times when I was in horrible situations and remember feeling almost peaceful as they were happening. Like when I watched my Grandma die, or when I went through my father’s cancer.

Like those other times, I think this trauma has forced me into the present moment.

This inner peace, inner stillness, is what I have been connecting with, and what has been sustaining me.

My son is making slow progress, coming out of his severe depression/anxiety and recent heartbreak. He is taking a semester off from school.

I am trying to deal with my thoughts without letting them take me over. It is a moment by moment thing.

Very grateful for so many kind people in my life. I cannot believe how connected I feel to other moms who also are going through, or who have lived though a crisis with a child.

He said he’s feeling better. I see him sleeping all the time and not eating. I have tremendous worry inside, but I can choose to connect with my breath and slow it down. I can breathe in the suffering of worried mothers everywhere and breathe out peace to us all.

Motherhood is not for the faint of heart, lol.

xo, Lisa Arcelia

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Author: Lisa Arcelia

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